SO TIRED. but immensely high. haihz. my eyes are like closing lah... but i was like a madwoman today! me and jo were dancing arnd haha. yeah shared my non existent passion for this trip with my cell today and i guess it helped to like voice it out haha... just yeah. i hope God answers my prayer and gives me an extra amount of love for the country and the pple there! :) had christmas cluster meeting today... its prob going to be at my hse. oh man.... time for the roof to collapse lah... i think tt they think tt the hse is bigger than it really is lor... oh wells. we'll see haha. tml we having a breifing with all the kids. WOAHZ. be prepared for a madness time haha.

anyway was struck by something in worship today... im guessing tt the theme was God's love and my qt yst was on love too and how God is love. and like while i was singing "hear these praises from a grateful heart, each time i think of you all the praises start. Love You so much, Jesus, love You so much" i just felt like God was asking me "you say it but do you really?" and i realised tt i kinda lost my love for Him? as in the first love... like got caught up in so much other things, service and studying and friendships and everything tt is happening in my life that i forgot the one constant, the one and only Person who has always been there for me through it all. and i was like mouthing the words and repenting in my heart that i have not meant what i said, that i put loving God behind doing things, for being a martha instead of a mary. and God let me feel His presence again and it was so wonderful. i really missed it alot i guess... and like i din even noe tt it wasnt there! gosh. good thing God is so nice to show me :) and cell was qt good today... was discussing surrendering to God and i know that is one area in my life tt i can DEFINATELY work much harder on!Just pray that God will give me the strength to be the best person tt i can be :)

ok. an amusing conversation:

Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
it's ok i tell u now
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
u're special to me....anything goes for u!
shalom eats healthy says:
such a kind fella
shalom eats healthy says:
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
hehe
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
if i were manjan n not liking another girl i'd have kidnapped u!
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
haha
shalom eats healthy says:
!!!!
shalom eats healthy says:
haha
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
serious!
Dinesh - Scolionophobia says:
i'll wack up any guy u'll be wif if he doesn't take care of u!

aww. dinesh so nice haha. hes my unattached bf hahaha. and my hugging fren! ill really miss him nxt yr mannnn. always in the canteen ready to let me jump on him and grab him hahaha. and hes like the nicest of the ics dudes to me hees. dinesh u rock :)